Closing In...

It's been a while since I've posted. I started this blog to document the journey from novice horsewoman to, yes, barn owner, and now the journey seems to be getting much, much closer to the actual transaction.



This week, my current barn owner and her (now) former partner, signed the paperwork to allow the former partner to resign/retire from the farm. One small real-estate transaction (the sale of some wood lot acreage) is left to complete, and the next step will be for us to buy-in/sign-on to the farm LLC to become partners.



This has been about the only thing on my mind for the last three or four months, but because we weren't quite sure the legal transactions would flow smoothly, thus weren't yet telling our students & boarders, I didn't feel comfortably blogging about it. You never know who's reading, and who might have an issue with it.



It's a terribly exciting time, but now that it's actually almost here, it's a scary time, too. There's the whole financial piece...juggling how long I need to keep working full time to be able to afford this with the imminent need at the barn for me to be working there full time to train horses and perform the million daily maintenance tasks a full-time farm requires. The deeper we get in to the financial pieces, the tighter I cling to the full-time job, terrified to run out of money (not that we won't anyway). But the tighter I cling to the day-job, the more frustrated I get about not having enough time to get everything done at the farm...



I'm pressing...



I need to slow down and relax. Breathe. Balance. Just like dressage...just like yoga.



But it's hard when everywhere you turn, everything you see just requires work, repair, training, progress...it feels like every day that slips by is a lost opportunity. I'm on vacation this week, and I've only managed one training ride and to repair one small section of fence...



Stop pressing...relax...breathe...



This change does mean, or could mean if we let it, the total upheaval of our lives. We will, within the next 2 years (probably) move to the farm. We will either sell our current house and add on to the farmhouse to accommodate ourselves, or we'll try to add on out there and rent out our current house for the income. Planning that whole process is another element of chaos & stress. It's just our entire lives...where we live, how we live, with whom we live...



At times, I just want to go slow, relax, and sort it out over time. But then, some days, the 30-mile commute is just killing me, and I want to move tomorrow so I can get back that many hours in my day...

...ack...I've still got to finish this post, but I've run out of time...